HI all, the last few days, weeks months have been power draining as my A-Autistic Disorder is acting like some time of detailed boarderline syndrome , changes are very hard to take with many specific detailed things.
Like these 3dfx sales I have been putting on and off ebay, my mind goes on then off then on then off everyday this is getting worse and I have thought about a long term leave.
I have done many 3dfx people alot of pain this way as made their 3dfx lives too confusing and yes I ahve truely failed you people I have truely failed you all.
My head is now like a raging fire of confusions and sometimes it made me so bad that in some cases suicidal.
my life has gotten from pretty good to pretty bad and why this is all happening I just don't understand, it;'s like some virus eating away everything.
The Force has drained out of me and now I must go to exile.
I thank all the people here that have supported me, The Force Glows greatly with you all.
Quoteyes I ahve truely failed you people I have truely failed you all.
It's not true! you haven't failed: you served our community in the best way! you are one of the pilaster of this community
QuoteI have done many 3dfx people alot of pain this way
I never felt pain because of you
Quoteit made me so bad that in some cases suicidal.
This is NOT a solution, ever.
I hope you will be fine again a day in the closest future and you will decide to leave the exile and come back; we all will wait this day eager.
Bye for now, Obi-Wan
thank you for your caring words Benna :) I have talked to my parrents today and my friends as some Voodooalert people via ICQ, MSN & Skype and now I am feeling somewhat releaved.
all your words have touched me deeply from within and yes I am back but with ease I will regain my powers.
Tonight my best friends are her, in this very own home of mine where SK1 also has been in. We are going to have a beer party as talk with each other about these problems I have been having, as I have discussed with my parents & my best mates Niels & Bennie, SK1 you know these two Jedi Knights since they were also in the pub when you were here.
Mentally I am feeling somewhat empty though most of the negative feelings have disappeared, tonight I will get a good night rest after the beer party and tomorrow is a new day to start anew.
I thank you all for your graceful support and The Force is returning I can sense it, my apologies of all what went wrong my friends as I still feel that guilt, it will be only a matter of time for now on.
But from here on I am back I have rethought my life the way it is and it shouldn't be that bad actually and yes the 3dfx community loosing that would be like a dagger through my heart I love the entire 3dfx community and I will always remain a part of it, just too many good people which is a very rare thing to come accross these days.
The Force shall regain it's powers and I have returned.
I'm happy to read your words, welcome back and best wishes for you new life!
yes obi wan! best wishes, really!
we, the 3dfx comunnity really like you friend!
best regards from argentina :)
gabriel
Good Luck, Master!!!! I Hope "The Force" be with you,...
Science and pacience, tooooo
We are hold your place until you say, hi again
Another Angentinean regards for YOU!!!!
I thank you all greatly Jedi Knights of the 3dfx Republic [8D]
Today all has gotten alot better the spirit of 3dfx hasn't dusapeared fully it's only regaining it's powers as I can feel it flow through my vains again, and I thank you all again for your graceful words, my fellow 3dfx comrades.